I Lost a Friend Today
I Lost a Friend Today
The note came in the mail.
I opened the seal not
expecting the weight I discovered ‘within.’
I lost a friend today…
I suppose you can ‘read’
this in a myriad of ways
But, I’ll make it clear—
Although ‘somethings’ are
never quite clear…
I buried her little boy
years ago.
We did not speak weekly,
monthly or even yearly,
still…we were ‘in touch.’
When I read the ‘words’—
Heaven’s doors—here, now
pushed open.
An enormous wave
formed from a source
unknown and a
kaleidoscope of tears
enveloped me.
I did not hold them back—
they spilled all over
me… I was soaked.
I sat
drenched in grief.
I sat …eyes swollen
and the milky substance
still finding form—
salted the edge of
my lips…
I walked later that day—
the rain pelted my cheeks…
washing my face now
mindful of death’s sting…
LATER…
I drove along a
winding trail—
trees stretched out their branches
and the sun burst
through the windshield’s
pane pressing itself
upon my chest.
I was warm…
filled with an
impregnable heat—
I never wanted to end.
Pulling the car to the side
of the roadway, I stopped—
the light still cast on my being.
I smiled
without realizing it…
my very lips curving
so far they
created a ripple in
my skin causing my
eyes to squint—
the sweetest ‘squint’ I
ever felt
AND— in that moment
THIS ‘present’
I found my friend
ALL around
Good Morning Sandy,
I felt your pain, your loss and your release. My thoughts are with you.
In Peace,
Lorra
Gratitude for YOU in my life!!!
I wish I could give you a hug.
But what a wonderful gift that the experience of grief can bring us closer to God. It has been that way for me.
Marilyn Rossier, Lee
Am ‘feeling’ your hug…AND grief is a Divine gift of grace once we’ve had a little time to settle ‘into’ it!
Thank you, Sandy. Your words and experience resonate with me and I know your speak Truth. Love and blessings are showering over you from me to you. XOXOX
I’m feeling the shower…xoxo
Thanks Sandy. Your words touch many of my friends today. In the last two weeks we buried seven of our sisters – mostly my peers.
I HEAR You!!! All my love sent your way!
This is beautiful Sandy! So sorry for your loss, but your shared feelings are so perfect.